Need to Stay Positive

I had more tracers over the last couple days. They only lasted a few minutes but I've read that if you experience vision problems with Clomid you should stop as it could cause permanent damage. Uggghh. I need to believe that this cycle will work. If not, I might be able to try Femara, similar to Clomid. The only next step after that is injectables, which could be between $2,000-$5,000 per cycle. I always feel like every time things are getting better something comes along and has to knock me back down. I can feel my mood slipping but I really need to stay positive about this cycle.

I'm a little worried about the chances of having multiples on Clomid but if we moved to injectables that's like a 25% chance. You're almost guaranteed to have multiples. Not that I would mind, it's just all about the babies health. They will most likely deliver early and could have potential problems. I'm already maxed out with current worries I can't add anymore to the mix. Why does this have to be so difficult. There are so many undeserving woman out there pregnant that don't even want a child. I don't get what Gods plan is.

Clomid So Far

I'll be taking my 4th pill later today. So far I haven't had any bad side effects. My moods have been great, but I'm usually pretty stable during the first couple weeks of my cycle any way. I've had some hot flashes I guess. I'm usually pretty cold, but the last couple days I've been feeling hotter. Even though I take my pill at 3:30pm, the hot flashes are the most at night. I wake up soaked in sweat and kicking off the covers. I know it's definitely not hot in the house.

Dr. Sofya said to start with the OPKs on CD10. Today is CD7. I think I'll start today so I can see how my LH is doing, plus I've got like over 100+ OPKs, might as well use them up. I'm hoping I wont need them again after this cycle :)