Need to Stay Positive

I had more tracers over the last couple days. They only lasted a few minutes but I've read that if you experience vision problems with Clomid you should stop as it could cause permanent damage. Uggghh. I need to believe that this cycle will work. If not, I might be able to try Femara, similar to Clomid. The only next step after that is injectables, which could be between $2,000-$5,000 per cycle. I always feel like every time things are getting better something comes along and has to knock me back down. I can feel my mood slipping but I really need to stay positive about this cycle.

I'm a little worried about the chances of having multiples on Clomid but if we moved to injectables that's like a 25% chance. You're almost guaranteed to have multiples. Not that I would mind, it's just all about the babies health. They will most likely deliver early and could have potential problems. I'm already maxed out with current worries I can't add anymore to the mix. Why does this have to be so difficult. There are so many undeserving woman out there pregnant that don't even want a child. I don't get what Gods plan is.

Holy Hallucinations Batman!!

Last night was CRAAAAAZY. While I was trying to sleep, every time I'd move my hand/arm in front of my face I'd see tracers. YIKES! I woke up later at 3am, went to the bathroom and as soon as I turned on the light, it was like tracer city. I could follow the patterns with the movement of any body parts. I moved around for about 10 minutes and it wouldn't go away, so I just figured go sleep it off. I woke up this am and was fine. I let Dr. Sofya know what happened and she's okay with it for now but if it keeps up we might have to change plans if this cycle is a bust. My moods have been GREAT though, I feel like I'm euphoric :)