9 Weeks

Whew, made is this far. So my 7th week u/s went great. The heart beat increased to 149, very nice. My doctor gave me a prescription for Zofran (anti-nausea meds) to help with the queasies. I've only thrown up once, I mainly just dry heave. I'm only taking the pills when it's at the worst point, which so far has been about 5-6 times. Weeks 6 & 7 were the worst weeks of nausea and since then it's been calming down. Every day is different. I usually have a tiny bit of nausea, but it's such a small amount I can mostly ignore it. Then out of the blue I'll feel just terrible. Never know when it's going to hit.

Right before I hit 8 weeks, I started to bleed. It totally looked like I started my period and I just broke down knowing that was it. My history so far has sucked so I shouldn't be shocked but I really thought things were going to be perfect this time. I called my doctor crying and she told me to come over for an u/s. The second I saw the baby on the screen I started crying because the heart was just beating away. I couldn't believe it. It was a strong 177 bpm. We measured the baby which should have been around 7 weeks and 6 days, my little chubster was at 8 weeks and 3 days. He did lots of growing this past week. We found some bleeding around the placenta, must have been a tear. Maybe from all the dry heaving. I'm now on bed rest till my appointment on Aug 6th. We'll decide then if I need one more weeks rest. The bleeding really shouldn't affect the baby so I'm hoping to see him doing great on Thursday. Since my first bleed I have since stopped and only spotted brown blood for a couple days. I seem to be back to normal, just taking it easy and working from home in bed right now. Guess I should enjoy the rest :)

1st Appt

We had our 1st appt on 7/16/09. It went pretty well. Baby measured just about perfect, I thought I was 6 weeks and 2 days but it measured 6 weeks and 1 day. Close enough :) All the important parts were there and we saw the heart beat, it was around 112. Doc said over 90 is fine but I'll go back in a week for another u/s to make sure the heart beat is increasing.

I was starting to feel icky while in the waiting room so I thought it was just nerves. Then of course I was nervous after we left because of the heart rate. I've looked up the stats for 6 weeks and baby falls in the range perfectly. The iky feeling turns out to be morning sickness...oh joy. I'm thankful for healthy signs but I sure do feel horrible. It's pretty constant throughout the day and has been everyday since my appt. I don't think we need to worry at all.

Guess What???

Since only a few people read this I think it's safe to post here. I'm prego!!! I can't believe it!! I started testing at 7dpo, I know too early, but a shadow was showing up. It wouldn't show till after the time limit so I just ignored it but it happened every time I tested. Each day the shadow got a teensy bit darker. Yesterday I was seeing much more of a line even though it's still faint. I grabbed a digi and it say'd "PREGNANT" @ 10dpo. SWEET!!

I went in for my Beta and Progesterone draw today. I should have the results Monday, hoping for high numbers on the Progesterone. I know the Beta won't be too high since it's sooooo early but I hope the number is average.

So far my symptoms are:
Slightly swollen boobs, a tiny bit of nausea and really tired. I'd say I'm peeing a lot but I do that to begin with. I have a bladder the size of a pea. I'm really fun to go on road trips with :)

For now I'm keeping this info hush hush. No posting on myspace or facebook about it. I might make it public when I feel more safe about the pregnancy.

My Ovaries Are Kicking Ass

First of all congrats to my ovaries for their hard work and I say HARD WORK because boy did I feel it! Let's say it felt like I was dropping a mondo dinosaur egg LOL. I say "dropping" as if I'm a chicken laying an egg ha ha. Hopefully I got 1 really good egg out...who knows it could be 2 :) After starting to think this cycle was done and the Clomid didn't work, I got a positive ovulation test yesterday. Woot Woot!! I'm pretty sure I ovulated today (cd20) based on the discomfort...aka mondo dinosaur egg. We've done everything perfect. You can just call us the energizer bunnies he he. So I now happily take my seat in the two week wait and I'm sure within the next few days I'll be pulling my hair out and driving myself nuts with the anticipation. Oye I love & hate the 2ww.

Need to Stay Positive

I had more tracers over the last couple days. They only lasted a few minutes but I've read that if you experience vision problems with Clomid you should stop as it could cause permanent damage. Uggghh. I need to believe that this cycle will work. If not, I might be able to try Femara, similar to Clomid. The only next step after that is injectables, which could be between $2,000-$5,000 per cycle. I always feel like every time things are getting better something comes along and has to knock me back down. I can feel my mood slipping but I really need to stay positive about this cycle.

I'm a little worried about the chances of having multiples on Clomid but if we moved to injectables that's like a 25% chance. You're almost guaranteed to have multiples. Not that I would mind, it's just all about the babies health. They will most likely deliver early and could have potential problems. I'm already maxed out with current worries I can't add anymore to the mix. Why does this have to be so difficult. There are so many undeserving woman out there pregnant that don't even want a child. I don't get what Gods plan is.

Holy Hallucinations Batman!!

Last night was CRAAAAAZY. While I was trying to sleep, every time I'd move my hand/arm in front of my face I'd see tracers. YIKES! I woke up later at 3am, went to the bathroom and as soon as I turned on the light, it was like tracer city. I could follow the patterns with the movement of any body parts. I moved around for about 10 minutes and it wouldn't go away, so I just figured go sleep it off. I woke up this am and was fine. I let Dr. Sofya know what happened and she's okay with it for now but if it keeps up we might have to change plans if this cycle is a bust. My moods have been GREAT though, I feel like I'm euphoric :)

Clomid So Far

I'll be taking my 4th pill later today. So far I haven't had any bad side effects. My moods have been great, but I'm usually pretty stable during the first couple weeks of my cycle any way. I've had some hot flashes I guess. I'm usually pretty cold, but the last couple days I've been feeling hotter. Even though I take my pill at 3:30pm, the hot flashes are the most at night. I wake up soaked in sweat and kicking off the covers. I know it's definitely not hot in the house.

Dr. Sofya said to start with the OPKs on CD10. Today is CD7. I think I'll start today so I can see how my LH is doing, plus I've got like over 100+ OPKs, might as well use them up. I'm hoping I wont need them again after this cycle :)